ali, FUCK OFF!

our ever-first-proper CT session. wat did we do? SELF-REFLECTIONS.

lemme see, i'm proud of being able to juggle both my studies & cca well, at the same time, hv loads of fun!

however, i muz admit tt laz yr the internet was rather addictive. online moz of the time. i'll noe my limits tis yr.

LIFE GOALS.
1 yr from now i see myself preparing to enter a local U. moz prob gonna drop chem S so can forget abt scholarship. in the first place, i tink i took 2 S becos almoz the whole claz is taking. shall not burden myself. hapie staying in s'pore.

30 yrs from now, hopefully i'll hv a happy family. my dream has always been to give birth to a 'long feng tai'. wonder if i'll hv a broken family? well, marriages nowadays, i'm totally not optimistic.

after that, 03s32 'lao yu sheng' in the canteen with chanks & mrs lim joining us. to tink she said we very "auntie". hmph! however un-superstitious we are, it was all in the name of gd luck. great start for a great yr ahead!

moving on to bowling PT. SIGH. the yr 2s dint take it seriously. WTH?!! to tink i told them attendance is COMPULSORY. thank gdness now i hv the backing of mr tan & ms siow. training is officially mon, wed, fri. guess bowling will be closed down nxt yr.

anyway, we planned to run 2 rounds ard sch campus but it rained quite heavily on our first round back. did weights for biceps & wrists. launches, climibing stairs and half-squats. also tried 10min on the machine used to train for X-country. it was a gd workout overall.

BUT, the festive season is getting to me! i'm eating so much. muz exercise self-control liaoz. hahaha. saddening sia.

"Goals are not only absolutely necessary to motivate us. They are essential to really keep us alive."

finally blogger is back up. suddenly had the inspiration to blog yest but sth was wrong. nvm. incident passed.

i can say CNY tis yr for me was so much different as compared to past yrs. spent the entire weekend with my clazmates. went visting each other's house. reali had lotsa fun.

sat: visited keith's, panghao's & weexiong's hse. ph's hse is the old, traditional type of terrace. was rather surprised. aiyaz but it's ph, wat's not surprising abt him anyway? he played his electric guitar. WAH! tt's all i can say. dam pro. while u're sitting there, how u wish u had someone as talented. staring in AWE. played MJ at nite. took a ride back from alex. nice guy i muz say.

sun: jm's hse is B-I-G. i like the layout too. her room is stunning too. reali muz stay over one of these days. she has the oto body massage machine. it's thoz like an ecg machine where u stick pads and electric signals are sent thru. the feeling is, ermz, shocking? i meant tt literally. at lubin's hse, they were jamming in the mini studio. absolutely cool~! now i noe lubin gets carried away while playing the drums.

thanx guys! i reali enjoyed myself, be it the company or wateva, i had a terrific time.

then, back to school agn. coping with the pace. at least i'm putting in an effort to do attempt the tutorials. getting the rhythm back.

ahhh, one horrible thing happened. terina's angel said grace & i are ugly. WTF?!! i'm not gonna let him off. shall whack the fish&co jts tis sunday evening. wat reali shocked me was tt ppl like him exist in tis world. however blatant i am, i'd not criticize a person's look so directly. moreover, is he tyring to sow discord? haiz. to hell with the guy!

for one thing, i dun tink i'm ugly. i'm serious. everyone has their own beauty. in fact, no one is ugly. at least tt is wat i feel. and i noe i exude an aura of confidence. well, maybe only some will detect it.

saw julian today. actually i see him almost everyday. hehz. wateva. seriously, i dun bother. no interest in guys at the moment. oh yes, my dearest jm said tt i looked compatible with desmond. LOL! yeayea, the 'seh' kinda look rite. oh well, he's attached and i'm not interested. the story ends there. hahaz.

bowling PT tmr. first one ever. hopefully all will go well.

"We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same."

it's been a great CNY so far. fill ya in on the stories in awhile.

for now, wish me all the luck there is ard for SAT!

ushering in the year of the monkey. in malay, taon monyet.

so here's a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to each and everyone of u from all the different races.

*muackz*

chu xi!! yea tis is so exciting.

juz had reunion dinner at ah kong's hse. tell u ah, can't stand my godma aka my eldest aunt. kao peh non-stop. still niao me abt SAT. like show some sympathy can?

as usual too much food. too bad! (quoted from ms. kaopeh) u all shall hv it for lunch tmr while i enjoy my nice soup in mama's hse. muahaha. actually the food standard has plunged tis yr. becos the lazy-vainpot-greedy-yet-wanna-be-slim maid is gonna go home soon so i guess she prolly heck cares.

desert was gd though. one of malay neighbours back in the kampong times' popped over to pay her respects to my grandpa and gave a homemade cheesecake too. yummy! it was delicious! quite a normal cheesecake but for home standards i muz say it's pretty impressive. the crust was made using oreo biscuits i tink.

aftermath of being an ogl: enthusiasm. did all 8 mass dances in the morning. shiok! went far east with jm, weixin & von. saw tis pair of slippers, was gonna to get it, then no size. sad case. *sigh* nvm. proceeded to suntec for lunch with jm and 3 acs(i) sailors - maxi, chris & julian. they reali hv a similar trait, not sth tt can be explained so easily, u muz experience to understand.

julian is soooo cute!! oopz! not tt i can help it. anyway, here are some of the jokes he told us. dam farnie, of cos lame too.

1. why did the boy say he has 11 fingers? becos he's lying.

2. why did the man throw the toliet bowl out of the aeroplane? becos he's an idiot.

3. a guy was walking along the road when he suddenly died. why did he die? becos sth from above dropped on him. then why did the small boy at the kindergarten cry? becos it was his father.

4. 'to be or not to be' is the answer. wat is the question? 'wat is the square root of 4 B square?'

typical VS jokes. oh no! here comes the sch discrimination agn. hahaz.

i bot a pair of shoes from VNC. $25.90 jm guess which pair? u'll see on saturday. hehz. still tinking abt one particular pair of slippers. maybe i'll get my sis to buy it for me.

oh yes, and the lil' sweetie pie bot me a pair of teva slippers which i dint wanna get cos i thot it was rather flimsy. kinda upset her. i'm sorie! shall ask her to sell or keep for herself then.

gonna get my nails done soon. follwed by a peranakan mass at 11pm. wat an eventful day!

auspiscious hour to wake up tmr is b/w 5 - 7am. drink sth sweet. wear bright clothes. all these for GOOD LUCK!

my oh my, why am i not surprised to be an extrovert. hahaz. thoz who noe me well enuff, u all shuld noe by now.

CNY is juz round the corner and now is not the bez time to fall ill. as for me, today is the fourth consecutive day tt i've been suffering from a splitting headache, or maybe a migraine. seems like none of the medicine is working. feeling slightly beta now so i can blog.

let's look back.

fri: sch ended early for me. muahaha. no phy S. had the OG bbq in the evening. of cos, tis day was the start of the headache. left ard 10+. tink i was reali outta sorts cos sue lynn and panda asked if i was ok. reached home, desmond asked me to play pool. ?!! my rxn exactly. dint go for obvious reasons. could hv stayed out reali late tt nite as my mum was in bintang. however, i noe my limits. i'm sure.

sat: slept 2h-2h in the afternoon. the head wasn't getting any beta. tried panadol. NO EFFECT! ended up ransacking my mum's drawer for migraine medicine. after i woke, the pain subsided for awhile then it came back agn. can somebody juz save me? went IMM in jurong to shop with my aunts. they bot all 3 of us siblings clothing. got a skirt and top from Baleno. reached home at 1am. slept only at 3am cos i had so much rest in the afternoon.

sun: woke up w/o any discomfort. i thot it was a miracle. managed to pia some work b4 the pain came back. arghz. it's reali antagonising. laid in bed once agn. tis time, the medicine had such a slight effect tt it was as gd as nutin. forced myself to go church followed by shopping at tampines. i'm still searching for a pair of slippers. left with one which i reckon would snap soon. oh yes, my spoilt sis cried when i said $348 was too expensive for a SL55. she complained tt juz becos i dint like the phone so i was finding all excuses to stop her from getting it. WTH?!! dam pissed off with her. anyway she got in for $248 in the end. dunno wat happened. totally not interested in the process.

today, went to sch hoping the pain would once and for all be gone with the wind. nah, nutin of tt sort happened. instead i was bearing with the pain from the first lecture to the laz tutorial i attended. intermitten pain i would say. terina's mum makes nice pineapple tarts. only thing the pineapple is considered a bit too little for the pastry.

during chem, we were getting so bored tt we played a childish game. it started with lubin, panghao, grace and me. then jm & panda joined in. all of us were sitted in the back row with the 2 ends, grace & panda starting actions tt we would mimick. it was dam farnie. laff till my head wanna burst.

feel quite bad, dint go training. but i couldn't help it. i was running a fever 37.9°. gonna see a doc soon. i'm afraid i may hv to go for blood test. hopefully nutin major comes up. juz praying for the bez.

"Nothing is so strong as gentleness. Nothing is so gentle as real strength."

longest day of sch ever. to worsen things, my mood was totally off cos the wire has been piercing my mouth since mon and i get agitated easily. thankfully there was mr. crappy aka panghao who reali helped lighten the mood. chi lessons are bearable with him to tok cock.

for the past few GP lessons, there's been tis heated discussion for some of the presentations on topics linked to education. quite an interesting topic i muz say. then mr. crappy turns to be mr. wise. words of wisdom flowing whenever he gets irritated with karseng. dunno why but karseng seems to hv sth to say abt almost everything. phew! he dint rebutt the pts in my presentation. even if he did, so wat? i'm confident of "winning".

coming back to today, i was asleep during the presentation on streaming till i heard karseng's voice followed by panghao's voice. the flames of the discussion were slowly growing. suddenly the subtle resentment within sherlyn resulted in an outburst where even chi idioms and proverbs were being used. ri-liang asked me to bring up some pts too. arghz. how i reali feel? karseng is overdoing it. from today's exchange, i can conclude tt he aims to be the bez. (DUH~!) mentioning abt the bez in sg not being the bez in the world. wateva the case, it juz puts me off. and how can anyone ever forget him going on and on abt Nash Eqm? gimme a break! i heard enuff of tt of the whole of laz yr. i dun need no shit no more. pw is over! get a life! start living and breathing the air tt we express ppl breathe. GEPs are meant to tink, in my opinion, more absurdly. of cos i noe i'm being biased for now. time will cool me.

math S! ahhh can somebody help me? the pace in the lesson is way too fast for me.
chem S! OMG! i sat there alone for one hour juz listening w/o understanding a single shit she was trying to teach. seriously contemplating dropping chem alredi. shuld i stick on and see how things go? or shuld i free myself from tis misery? much as i like chem, my A lev subject takes priority. i tink i shuld live my life the way i want. i do not want to be a slave at the mercy of the elders' longings and hopes. i wuld very much like to fulfil their wishes but my happiness and life comes first. starting to feel the stress only on the first S paper lesson. how can i cope? for now, i can only pray and hope tt i find a way out of tis darkness. i wanna see the light soon.

as for the rez of my life, no new additions so far. julian's cute however. sailor from acs(i). sch is starting to get back to normal. maybe also becos i've got the work prepared so i follow. i like it tis way. things being so simple and plain. on the other hand, i'm tinking and figuring all ways to earn more cca pts. my A grade seems attainable yet seems so impossible. it is tt kinda netiher here nor there situation i face once agn.

i hope i dun fall for u. i wanna keep my distance yet i wanna be near. i noe ur heart is with someone else. it's bez we remain as frens. i wun reveal my feelings. juz tt u bring joy to my life right now.

orientation 04' officially came to a close yest with the sea regatta as the finale. had more fun tis time round as compared to laz yr. maybe cos ogls had the privilege of dunking ppl into the sea.

highlight of the day: i went sailing!!
jessica took me on her laser radial out to sea. i was controlling the rope. how interesting. we faked capsize once. kinda cool. when we were returing to shore, she let me control everything by myself. guess wat? tis time was a real capsize. hahaz. on 2nd thots, capsizing is not tt fun after all. it's tiring. my arms are still aching now. anyway only one word abt sailing: FUN!

naturally under the blazing sun i got burnt. worse still, i came down with a fever. went town to makan and i was emitting heat. couldn't fully enjoy myself out cos i was too tired. all the other ogls were making fun of me. reached home at 10pm, had a quick wash-up and was practically rooted to bed. temperature: 38.9° freaking hot! thank gdness it subsided and most of the aches hv gone with the wind too.

initially bryan said he would only meet us for lunch but he came to the beach. however, back in the sch hall, he was juz stoning, totally unlike him. spoke to him, guess he was juz traumatised by the funeral. luckily he cheered up a lot more later on. oh yes, and he did his 'yes my dear' thing agn. oh plz dun tink otherwise. it's all in the name of frenz.

as for dominique, she got "pissed" agn! cos the odac-ers kept suaning her and bryan. honestly, it's kinda puts me off a little. juz dun bother. she has tis "spoilt brat" aura ard her when she does tis. only bryan can make her hapie la. wat can i say? nevertheless, she's been a great fren.

sean leh, hahaz, seriously, he's not my type of guy. aft getting to noe him a little beta, seeing him open up a bit more, i realize he's juz not rite. he can be a nice fren though. moz guys are nice frens anyway. shall not be solely attracted to looks.

i'm thankful for getting to noe tis bunch of ogls and yr 1s too. they're reali fun ppl who can brighten up ur day. there's an unofficial bbq tis fri. looks like fun is back on track agn.

laz but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! and hapie bdae yx. though i reali dun wish to see/tok to u agn, my greeting still goes out.

"Do good by stealth, and blush to find it fame."

guess who's back? back again.

yoz wazzup? blogger was hving some problems the past few days. couldn't view any blogs so dint update.

let's start.

day 1: got to see all thoz in my legion. wat can i say? not too bad. wasn't up to my expectations though. sadly, the whole izak was rather dead on the first day. so during our og meeting, dear bryan sorta tried to psyche them up a little for the next day. thank gdness it worked. first day working with all the ogls, pure fun manz!

day 2: it was a saturday of gdness' sake! things were still gd. we had an og outing. went parkway for lunch. then the grp split into 2. i went to play pool with a few others while the rest went town to catch a movie (dint in the end cos there were no tix).

day 3: long day. no monday blues! yay! went to suntec. vj tradition? sat ard the fountain eating dinner. got to noe sean liew 04s17 (nonis' junior claz!). he was one of the prince elects. thot he was by far the bez looking in izak alredi. anyway he's known as mr handsome. more or less an open secret alredi la. who cares? hahaz. he's attached. drop the idea girl! and his gf is older than him. hehz. izzit juz me? i tink so. NoNoNo i shall not feast my eyes on younger guys alredi. anyway i tink he "lyks" jem. keeps on calling her cute!

day 4: wet games! cool. had lotsa fun with bryan. he was initially not supposed to be in sch due to compassionate grounds. then he appeared. was shocked. moreover we told izak tt he wouldn't be coming anymore. nvm abt tt. he thot us some 'long, he, hu, bao, she' game which was dam fun! then there was the 'front, back, side' game. hahaz. reali nice when everyone stands in a row and does it.

time for wet games. i was so dry until bryan started the ball rolling. wanted to "hug" me at first, lucky i discovered the "good" intention. then it got a little messy with all the ogls and odac ppl trying to bomb each other. b4 i go on, i muz mention abt the apple game. there is a pail filled with water and an apple floating. each legion is supposed to finish the apple so tt the core can be seen. it was pure entertainment for me! i tink i laughed for a whooping 10min non-stop. there was one where the saliva was dripping when he was trying to get the apple. another was licking the apple. hahaz. juz try imagining.

now lemme go on abt getting wet. at first i won the water gun from bryan but he got it back. we fought from the gym alley all the way to the washing area at the track. then i was attacked by the hose. dam! wet thru' sia. cold! the finale was when we played the animal game. winner gets to splash loser. challenged keith wong to our own version of it (the one mentioned earlier). guess wat? i had half a pail of water down my head. shiok! went round hugging ppl.

went for dinner with some of the ogls and 2 yr 1s, des & charmain. sean dint join us cos we were one step too late in asking him. wasted! hahaz kiddin'.

day 5: NITE-O. longest of all days. idac had an overwhelming response of 146 who signed up. bez of the fake! woohoo! go idac! i'm the MJ i/c. hahaz wat's not rite? the performances put up by the yr 1s were, i'm sorry, but boring! fell asleep. the SC couple dance was nice but not as gd as the 19th. as usual, the 6 mass dances plus cheers marked the end of orientation. thanx to all who made it successful and thx for the yr ones' participation.

made some reali great frens-cum-juniors there. hopefully it goes a long way. went for dinner-cum-supper at parkway. i spotted tis ulu spot on the 6th floor. it was actually the entrance to the office tower. all was fine till the security guard came to lock up and chased us away. proceeded to the 7th floor, open air carpark.

b4 tt, bryan called cos SCs and Kings & Queens had to stay back to clean up. sorie if i'm mad but the 2nd call he said, "yes my dear..." hahaz. okayz wat was tt for? juz wanted to say it. anyway his yellow smiley face silk boxers was shown to the remaining ogls when all the guys attacked him and stripped him. hehz. pulled up his shirt too. gosh! was a sight manz. then alex (odac), zhiheng & johnson was poled. ouch! girls of cos were safe. girls love girls! we protect each other.

by the time i reached home was 10.45pm. was so tired tt i slept unknowingly with my wet hair. skipped mechanics lecture today. walked into sch at 9.10am. ms siow saw me and scolded me. hahaz. oh wellz, i can't possibly defend myself by saying tt i planned it rite? wat kinda defence is tt anyway?

sch was totally sian for me today. was quite lost during mechanics tutorial. decided tt i shuld speak to mummy abt hving phy tuition. guess i reali need it. aunt pat called to ask me if i could tuition her p4 nephew. i'm gonna give it a shot. see how things go. in the meantime, life goes on from here, for me.

"Life is a quest and love a quarrel."

woah~! first day of school, first day of orientation. power up!

i was supposed to be in sch by 7.15am tis morning but reached at 7.25am. wat to do? i'm alredi 15min earlier than normal.

anyway there were a few familiar faces in the myriad. florence quek (dint noe her name till juz now) & jeremy chia, jonathan's bro. while walking to the lt went up to say hi to him. then he started with a whole chunk of my info. it was as if he knew everything maybe juz waiting for me to make the first move.

basically the yr 1s were rather quiet. no life! totally. sad case manz. hopefully they start to loosen up soon. invited them to hv dinner with us (ogls) but not a single soul stayed back.

proceeded with dinner at makan parade. was starving by then. decided to play pool. bryan was supposed to join us when suddenly he said his bro was waiting for him to open the door. BRYAN, CAN U COME UP WITH A BETA EXCUSE NXT TIME? gosh! it was so fake. summore i overheard his conversation b4 tt. muz hv went to meet dom.

wait! b4 i move on, i muz say tis! BRYAN is dam HORNY!!

yeap, so aft pool, keith ho, gim sen, jm & myself had a drink at the hawker centre. and guess wat? we started gossipping. hahaz. dam farnie! KEITH HO is a SUPER BA GUA! lotsa latest info. found out abt a lot of the "behind the scenes" news.

hoping to see a more enthuastic crowd tmr. tt's all for now folks!

HAPPY 2004!!

a new yr has come, a new start for all.

start anew and live life to the max.

new yr resolution: "to be a decent girl."

and the irony of it was, i kicked start my year at embassy. sorta legal cos they go by yr. tt's wat i was told.

so to share my first real clubbing experience was my 2 beloved couz shawn & bong, together with ken C. & fiona. thanx loads! love ya guys.

"shuld auld acquaintance be forgot, and nv brot to mind? shuld auld acquaintance be forgot, and days of auld lang syne?"