Tuesday, August 31, 2004
i made new discoveries today. i found out vjc and srjc are the only 2 jcs who offer study break before prelims, of course, vj's is longer. i found out that my stamina has improved, or so i think. i found out i've been eating a lot the past few days.
anyway, dragged myself out of bed early in the morning when my bones were feeling wobbly to rush down to school to watch the musical staged by vj teachers. it's the second year running that the teachers are performing during teachers' day celebrations. wonder if it is a vj tradition? chanks specially smsed a few of us last night to tell us to go back to school today (self-advertisment) only to watch him DANCE! omg! let's not go into details, it was just unsightly?
didn't mind going back to tk but nobody was going to accompany me. actually i would only visit mr yeo whom i see frequently around the area and ms chuan who would call me once in a blue moon to disturb me. consoled that the performance was yucky.
something terrible happened today. i burnt the pot. i was boiling soup for dinner when i fell asleep only to awake 2 hours later to find that all the water had evaporated. was so discouraged initially but dinner turned out to be a feast even without soup.
let me tell you a joke sis told me while i was bathing. a joke that would only thrill the young.
at the age of 75, an old man quit smoking. his friend asked how he did it. "Will power."
at the age of 80, he quit drinking. again, his friend asked how he did it. "Will power."
now, at the age of 85, he quit having sex. this time he said, "Power failure."
okay, now you may start laughing.
bad news! i haven't started on any past year papers yet. and i hate it when i try to study in the afternoons but fall asleep. it always happens! i'm so pressed for time now i decided not to study maths + f maths. i shall just practice and practice and practice.
is there something going on? her blog is so misleading. nevertheless, i don't have time to care for all this. i had better concentrate on my studies. not forgetting the fact that i might want to try applying for the firefly scholarship. real estate or law, both sound just as good.
Monday, August 30, 2004
DREAMS - Diana Degarmo
Dreams are just dreams
When it's dark inside your head
And all it takes is a little help from you
You know it's true
That dreams are for real
When you see what I see
And you feel it too
We took the longest road
Just to make it harder
Let's do it all again
It only makes us stronger
Dreams
I guess we're just made of dreams
Nothin' else matters
As long as we believe
I'm lookin' at you
And I see my life
Passing before my eyes
And when the journey's over
And all my dreams come true
I'll dream of you
What do you see
When you look inside your heart
A little thought
Can walk a thousand miles
And change your life
When dreams lead the way
The impossible is suddenly in sight
Every step you take
Just brings it all together
You gotta keep the faith
When all seems lost forever
You're the one
That keeps my hope alive
My vision clear
I'll spend my life with you
Conquer fear
We'll make it through
Nothin' else matters
As long as we believe
I'm lookin' at you
And I see my life
Passing before my eyes
And when the journey's over
And all my dreams come true
I'll dream of you
forgot to mention this yesterday, there is a handsome girl working at hard rock, if you know what i mean. managed to sneak some shots of her. if only guys were that good looking too.
16 days of olympic fever is finally over. i still can't seem to get enough of catching live action. athens 2004 has left me 3 idols: Michael Phelps (swimming - USA), Catalina Ponor (artistic gymanstics - Romania) & Irina Tchachina (rhythmic gymnastics - Russia). start the countdown to beijing 2008.
i don't like the resident guest of tonight in athens, jose raymond. his talent lies in criticising the various countries and athletes. moreover, the "jokes" or rather cynnical statements made are definitely unpleasing to my ear. couldn't they have gotten someone better?
anyway, i'm in a extremely good mood now. elated, exhilarated, ecstatic, euphoric, jubilant, on cloud nine. HAPPY is the best word. i've removed my braces!! just cannot contain the excitement within me. the de-banding process was painful though. waited for this day the moment i put them on. freedom for my teeth.
i'm a pretty girl now.
Sunday, August 29, 2004
for a moment, you're so damn nice and close.
the next, you turn into a hostile and nonchalant idiot.
nobody owes you a living.
wake up! get a life! CHANGE!
the friction between us will wear and tear the relationship.
i can't help but get mad at you.
enough of unhappy issues.
had guilty stuff for lunch - hard rock cafe.
the food, *thumbs up*
fish&chips, grilled cod fish and tenderloin.
also, apple crumble with a strong cinnamon taste, topped with a scoop of vanilla ice-cream.
the other dessert was vanilla ice-cream topped with strawberry sauce and pound cakes cut into cubes.
ocbc card holders get a main course 1 for 1.
offer ends 31 oct.
i'm still trying very hard to study.
unfortunately, it doesn't seem to be working well.
hoping not fall asleep like yesterday.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
i ate the most today throughout the week.
had swensens though the topless 5 offer is gone.
tried some other ice-cream which i suddenly can't rememeber the name.
just came back from durian.
actually the coconut was so much sweeter.
hopefully i don't break the record tomorrow.
was at golden hill park condo today.
nice nice place.
or maybe because it's still new.
heard they got their TOP recently.
not all units occupied yet.
there are 3 sections to the pool.
the clubhouse rocks!
gym, billard room, sauna, lounge/multi-purpose room.
got the cash? grab the house.
price ain't too steep either.
besides, it's near someone's place.
haha, ok, that's not a selling factor at all.
hmmm seems like i'm promoting the property.
i should go into sales.
who knows? i might end up taking real estate in NUS.
after all, i did the wonderful survey for jem.
fri, sat, sun seem to be a breeze.
it feels damn good not having to cook.
not that i'm sick of it but i get to relax.
and i'm hardly doing any housework.
slackers united!
i'm a mon to thurs maid.
ooh yesterday's meet-up with the tk peeps was great!
finally got to see xiaohui.
missed that girl so much.
there's only 3 of us left who are still 17.
it's good to be young, in fact, the youngest!
not spending bdae with them.
Korea!
latest news right?
spending my birthday with snow.
well, a blessing in disguise.
at least i can try to avoid having history to repeat itself.
anyway, when i'm back, i can finally go zouk.
clubbing's not my life but i still gotta check that place out.
jan, if only you were there yesterday, you've got to witness how ignorant crystal can get.
me: michael phelps is so cool!
crys: ya, i think so too. from australia right?
me: !!!!! NO! he's from america. ian thorpe's from aussie.
crys: oh really, i thought ian thorpe was from usa.
me: *bish*
crys: anyway, phelps sounds like "phalps" some mountain in australia.
me: erm, u mean, alps in switzerland?
crys: haha. oh... what's the mountain called again?
the things 18 year olds do.
i miss watching michael phelps in action.
luckily there's a nice pic of him in Times magazine.
his body is awesome!
quite cute too!
6 olympic gold medals.
what more can a girl ask for?
there's wincent, a guy, who admires him as well.
maybe phelps is metrosexual.
super motivated guy who swims 11km everyday irregardless public holiday or not.
can't wait for The Victoria's Secrets Fashion Show.
woohoo! i sound like some pervertic guy.
wait, let's not have gender stereotypes here.
it's not a guys' show!
ladies can watch it too.
then comes monday.
seriously damn excited!
not gonna tell u all what's happening.
for those who know, good for you!
i'll be a happy happy girl.
for now, i'd better hit the books.
haven't touched them the entire day.
as prelims draw nearer, the more relaxed i become.
what is happening to me?
i'm worried that i'm not the least bit anxious.
on the contrary, i sorta lost the momentum and motivation to study.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
cool cool, i'm relaxed.
however, just the thought of it makes my blood boil.
her indifference is killing me.
at least bro does bother to help.
my predictions of sg idol grp 1 top 3:
jeassea, david & olinda.
mum voted for olinda all becos she wanted to see her wear a skirt/dress the next round.
obviously there is a hidden agenda.
another one of her subtle tactics for sis to submit.
seriously, i'm worse than pissed off with her.
UNGRATEFUL LESBIAN!!
hate you for now.
enjoy, my all-time fav song.
OPEN ARMS - Journey
Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heartbeat
With mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love
Be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
And now that you've come back
Turned night into dayI need you to stay
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
i'm not appreciated.
why the FUCK do i do so much then?
i'm not your maid.
i will not serve you.
want anything, get it yourself.
much as i'd like to relax, i've to tend to the chores.
how abt you?
no initiative, that's one.
and u still dare to talk back.
where is your FUCKING gratitude?
and you.
don't wanna come home to eat?
DONE!
by all means.
have your way.
i'll be satisfied preparing salad to eat.
no hassle of preparing and cleaning up.
i've had enough for the day!
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
relax your eyes while you read me.
nope, i shall not comment on GP.
any mishaps would be my responsibility.
much as i like cooking, i'm getting a bit tired now.
it's not very fun having to prepare everything from scratch daily.
in the past, i used to have an "assistant".
i aim only to be a chef, if that's the case.
moreover, i burnt the kettle's wire.
then poisonous fumes of HCl suffocated me.
if at any one time they are ungrateful, i'm sure to turn into a ferocious monster.
is there such a thing as a temporary break from likings?
or is it that you're simply worn out?
or the focus is elsewhere?
or feelings don't exist?
have you been dehumanised?
hopefully the prelims doesn't shatter my confidence.
Sunday, August 22, 2004
i spent the entire day doing housework.
no ice cream, thank goodness!
ate too much yesterday.
anyway, to all the ice cream lovers, the offer is going to be changed to one with a minimum purchase. seems like the promotion and operations department did not sychronise resulting in a shortage of ice cream. production of ice cream is now reserved for the ice cream mooncakes. the notice will be out next week so grab the last opportunity to freeze yourself.
(swensens should hire me as their promotion manager)
once again, no medal for singapore in the olympics.
li jia wei seemed to have lost it all of a sudden.
try again in 4 years time?
GOOD LUCK to VJC for GP Prelims!
Saturday, August 21, 2004
sometimes i think i asked for it.
if i can try to keep within my obvious scope, and not sneak around, i won't know so much and always feel tinges of jealousy.
then again, if i act oblivious to everything, and pretend not to bother, curiosity will kill me even before i kill myself.
so the question is, "To know or not to know?"
basically, this will be a debate without any conclusion, parallel to the "chicken and egg" issue.
it's funny how someone alternates talking to two persons.
certainly, this person is smart to play on the feelings involved.
what a B*!
when you think a dead end is up ahead, suddenly a U-turn sign appears.
ironic isn't it?
unfortunately what is at stake is not wasted petrol but tender glass hearts.
of course no one would actually give a damn.
enough said, li jia wei lost to korea's kim _ _.
it was a good match, just unfortunate i guess.
so the only hope for a bronze medal this entire olmpyics would fall on her shoulders as she plays south korea.
table tennis can be quite interesting to watch especially when it comes to the intense moments.
congratulations to mr. Michael Phelps for clinching the 100m butterfly gold medal.
the swim was excellent as he seemed to surge thru the waters making up for the half body lead ian krocker had.
no more swimming.
this should end the olympic fever for me as well.
Friday, August 20, 2004
ice-cream galore!
it's going to be a 3-days-in-a-row swensen's topless 5 feast for me.
working the fats away is a must and suffering from brain freeze is secondary.
or is it?
my brain must function well for monday's GP papers.
speaking of which, i hit a record high for paper 2 today.
40 worthy marks.
contented as i am, i must not let confidence overshadow me.
it has been a good day in school, also the last day of school.
ending school with a bang!
Thursday, August 19, 2004
I'M MAID-LESS NOW!!
trust me, the workload is crazy.
thankfully there's still sis and bro to share the chores.
this is getting me very stressed up!
but i can't show it.
don't want my mother to worry.
the only good thing that will result is that i get to cook, cook and cook!
too tired to blog about anything else.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
pinning all hopes on li jiawei now for olympic medal contigency since susilo just lost to the thai guy.
it was a crashing defeat.
luck was certainly not on his side today.
proud of the romanians! they did well!
GOLD medalists for women's artistic gymnastics.
catalina ponor seated on the top spot for beam and floor exercise put on a stunning performance with a score of 9.762 and 9.750 respectively.
she ensured romania the first place when she shone during floor exercise.
the 17 year old sure has what it takes. no qualms.
as for my idol, mr michael phelps, he broke the olympic record for 2oom butterfly.
those arms of his have brought him a long way and will certainly continue to serve him well.
olympics in athens 2004 is drying me out.
still, i can't resist the temptation of catching live action.
sports connects the world? would you then say globalisation?
Monday, August 16, 2004
Michael Phelps!
i want a boyfriend with a body like his.
he's got the body, got the looks.
what's more, he's a WINNER!
looks like my daily routine now would be to come straight home after school to catch some live olympics action.
and so it begins today.
inspired by the swimmers and cadbury ice-cream (sinful!), i went for a dip.
it's been a year or more since i last entered the pool.
it feels great!
stamina seems to have worsened.
anyway, i've decided that i shall swim at least once a week.
a full body workout will do me good.
romanians were the highlight of the qualifying rounds for gymnastics yesterday.
just when i thought the usa girl wouldsit comfortably in the top spot for beam, the romanian snatched it away so easily with a score of 9.775.
i must really compliment her superb balance, accuracy, techinque, flips and somersaults, of course not missing out on her fantastic landing that completed the spectacular performance.
moreover, she's pretty and has the body.
well done to ronald susilo on defeating world no. 1 lin dan.
guess that caught everyone by surprise.
tonight's swim event is going to be another showdown between top swimmers ian thorpe & michael phelps.
trying my best to stay awake to catch it LIVE!
Sunday, August 15, 2004
got a new pair of adidas shoes.
red and white.
nice!
anyway, it looks very big.
actually it is a little big but i'm too lazy to get it changed.
moreover, today is the last day for exchange.
shall allow my feet some breathing space.
got a new phone too.
keeping a low profile.
i'm afraid of phone abuse.
i think i'm under-using it.
besides, i'm a computer idiot, which says a lot about the relationship between me and the latest phones nowadays.
my best achievement was taking 3 shots of a Bangaladesh GAY couple!
they were holding hands and strolling down the road.
evidence is with me.
they look brotherly though.
gonna catch the olympics women's gymnastics qualifying later.
that's one sport i love to watch.
swimming, of course, interests me too.
my latest discovery: olympics table-tennis women is a battle of best of China.
every country imports Chinese players.
it really is an irony.
i feel like a useless lipid.
highly saturated.
someone's working so hard while i'm slacking away.
guilt-strickened.
eat less, work more!
Saturday, August 14, 2004
church was slightly different today, or rather i feel different.
grasped a little of what the priest was preaching.
feeling very light hearted now.
maybe because i finally prayed for the right thing?
anyway, here's just a tiny tribute to Mother Mary.
pardon my holiness today. once in a blue mood kinda thing.
Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary
"Sweet summer passes, melting day by day
Into the smiling mellow autumn-tide;
The flowers are blooming still, the birds are gay,
And the fields wave in all their golden pride;
Fair nature pours her treasures far and wide
In joyful homage to our Lady dear,
For that her festival of highest tide,
The crowning gem of Mary's circling year,
The bright triumphant day of heaven and earth, is here."
isn't this poem lovely?
Thursday, August 12, 2004
this may sound spastic but i think my head has grown.
my brain expanded!!
consider this: f math test, gp compre, chem test. all in ONE day.
strenuous day.
tried skipping today. quite cool.
shall have a new workout routine.
it's good to sweat it out once a week.
if not, water retention seems so prominent.
is that crap?!
why am i gloating? tsk. bad girl!
at least i do it silently.
i learn from my mistakes and others' too.
though i'm trying very hard, i think it's going to amount to nothing in the end.
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
七里香 -周杰倫
窗外的麻雀 在電線桿上多嘴
妳說這一句 很有夏天的感覺
手中的鉛筆 在紙上來來回回
我用幾行字形容妳是我的誰
秋刀魚 的滋味 貓跟妳都想了解
初戀的香味就這樣被我們尋回
那溫暖 的陽光 像剛摘的鮮豔草莓
你說妳捨不得吃掉這一種感覺
雨下整夜 我的愛溢出就像雨水
院子落葉 跟我的思念厚厚一疊
幾句是非 也無法將我的熱情冷卻
妳出現在我詩的每一頁
雨下整夜 我的愛溢出就像雨水
窗台蝴蝶 像詩裡紛飛的美麗章節
我接著寫 把永遠愛妳寫進詩的結尾
妳是我唯一想要的了解
那飽滿 的稻穗 幸福了這個季節
而妳的臉頰像田裡熟透的蕃茄
妳突然 對我說 七里香的名字很美
我此刻卻只想親吻妳倔強的嘴
Monday, August 09, 2004
F I R E W O R K S ! !
splendid sight!
at least our efforts paid off.
we raced down ecp only to find a massive jam starting at marine parade.
exited and went by beach road.
parked just outside padang and squeezed thru' the tremendous crowd.
thank goodness we found a good spot and enjoyed a spectacular view.
fireworks galore!
fireworks, they caught me by surprise, if only u were by my side.
HAPPY 39th NATIONAL DAY! SINGAPORE.
practicing a little patriotism here.
c'mon, it's a yearly affair. at least it is for me.
well, this year i spent it in a different way.
had guests for the first time (i think).
baked pizza and tried a new method for cooking rosti.
both were successful! why wouldn't it be right?
watched Love Actually.
"let me say this without hope or agenda, to me, U're perfect!"
it brings back memories, bittersweet & sour!
it gives me the urge once again.
wait! BIG picture: A levels.
Saturday, August 07, 2004
i had crystal jade early in the morning. sinful or what?
my reasoning: since airport food isn't exactly cheap, might as well have a better meal.
the century egg porridge and char siew soh were superb!
it was $50+ for 6 of us. cheap right?
mav came over today. i realised i'll start whining and pouring out everything the moment i see her. thanks for the listening ear girl! it always feels good to be around her. don't let urself be bullied by that skinny girl. muz fight back!
i learnt so much about working out these few days. all thanks to a particular someone. always nice to learn something new though i think i'll never do it. i don't need and don't want the muscles. so long as i lose my fats, i'll be contented. shan't ask for too much.
Friday, August 06, 2004
the
house of flying daggers is worth my $7.50.
the fight scenes were superb!
only drawback was the humourous (lousy) ending.
overall, the storyline is good and the actors are damn handsome!
thanks khoonwee for the marche desserts.
not forgetting the wonderful scenery i enjoyed.
much as i'd loved to sit there till my bum rots, luckily there was jem who had to go.
a bad excuse but at least it dragged my unwilling soul out.
if i'd stayed on, my mind would be in a worse state now.
hey dear, don't think too much. don't read too much into anything. take everything with a pinch of salt. learn from the dear lesson. i know you're scared and insecure. you don't know what tomorrow will bring. it could jolly well be another farewell conversation. i know you've never been in a more unstable friendship than this. maybe that's because you treasure it too much. remember, there are many around who will always care for you.
see the big picture: prelims -> A levels.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
inter-house bowling was entertaining. free laughter for all.
the teachers were looking "cute" tossing the ball all over the place.
i had a great time emcee-ing too!
-bitching time-
- c*ndy low was and still is such a bitch! so what if u're the house mistress? u don't try ur luck pushing ur weight around in my presence. sarcasm was the key issue for u.
- melvin tan was looking good. rather consistent i must say, and terribly focused and serious. he did pegasus proud!
- th*mas teo, as usual, kinda had a one-man show. he clinched the high game award with a score of 165. overall, well done!
- chanks asked what he'd get from me if he got a strike cos i offered to buy kho yang thong coffee if he spared 4,7,10 split. guess what? i promised to study harder for chemistry and get an A. model chem rep, agree?
- it's unfair how those using light house balls are striking like nobody's business. the ball deflection is too great. hahaz.
i guess this is the highlight of the week. interesting, don't u think?
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Lorraine Toh, wake up!!
stop falling asleep so early in the night.
where has your stamina gone to?
you used to be a nocturnal creature.
anyway, i'm glad the 7 o'clock show is coming to an end.
i shall try not to be tempted to catch the next serial.
wonder when the 9 o'clock one will end.
i realised my days are revolving around math.
dull yet interesting.
immune to the kick of being able to solve questions.
it has just become too tedious and mundane.
i shall persevere to the every end.
so long as that bitchy slut doesn't bother me, i think i should be fine.
i discovered that maybe i can build my determination thru' exercising.
i shall work on it!
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
monotonous days.
tutorials are jam-packed from mondays to wednesdays, thereafter, it's slack time.
i feel that i need a break.
then again, the national day break cannot be taken lightly.
3 freaking tests that week.
push on for 4 more months and the misery shall be over.
i had a dream last night.
i dreamt of him and her.
i was playing middleman.
how dumb can i get.
wonder what i will dream of tonight.
my subconscious mind is only filled with all these.
distractions.
Sunday, August 01, 2004
i whipped up a sumptuous meal for aunt pat & family + mama. century egg porridge for the main and red ruby for dessert. i feel happy! cooking makes my day. there is a subtle joy that can only be experienced by the individual. more importantly, i got to eat the rich and creamy durian, the type that i love most, courtesy of uncle seah. i truly enjoyed myself savouring the local delicacy.
as for the near future, there should be more new recipes on the way as mummy seems to be in a mood for cooking. bought different types of flour for desserts such as kuehs and cakes. it's handover time so that the iron chef is in the making!
