will feb be a brand new month, with brand new luck and a brand new start?

"destined to be a tai tai and NOT work"

jobs and LORRAINE have no fate! let's see, i can't get a proper job and even a ONE day waitressing job at suntec goes wrong! for the first time, according to them, they were over staffed. great! basically got paid to do nothing but was bring sent home early, meaning no full payment. that's besides the point! i don't know if anybody can understand where i'm coming from. my mum has one thing to say, "ARSE LUCK!" well done mum! i can't agree more.

as for wasting my life away, that is, to put it very crudely and harshly, all has been well. fri's nbs bash was fantastic! the music was superb other than the intermitten house; the crowd was hot - babes and hunks alike! can't wait for the combined nus & ntu business bash. i was with my fav guy last night. shawn and him were teaching me to play number. the other table also had my super gentleman.

clubbing, playing snooker/number in the wee hours, supper and being a passive smoker seem to be the best things that are happening. my mind is free of worries when i'm there. my luck in love, wonderful! attracted a 17 year old boy and a durian seller. wow! honoured?! i feel sick thinking about it.

do u think i've changed? maybe.

i had an awesome trip!

bangkok airways carrier is smaller than nepal airlines. really shocking. 2+3 seats per row separated by an aisle. samui airport looks like a resort. terminals 1 & 2 are a road across and security is lax.

stayed at nova resort. hospitality was good maybe becos we were a 3min drive away from the heart of chaweng beach. the resort was facing chaweng lake instead.

headed out to town immediately after checking in and dumping our bags. enjoyed a nice night view of the beach and did some window shopping. had a bite before pubbing/clubbing.

basically the clubs have no cover charge. just order a drink and hit the dancefloor. the music was commendable. trust me, it was way better than rouge. and you really have to respect the locals. they are freaking loose! if you thought that the making out in sg clubs are bad, well you should see for yourself all the touching, flirting, kissing etc.

next morning, went on a big shopping spree at tesco lotus - a hypermart. unloaded the goods in our room and proceeded to rent a motorbike. tried riding the automatic bike but the boss thought that it would be too dangerous for us. walked about 2km before locating the bikini shop. branded stuff and i got a pink one for 750baht which is quite expensive i realised. changed and headed out to the beach. by that time, the sun was gone! had tequilla sunrise at club dejavu while mum had casabanca. happy hour, the cocktails were going for 100 baht. did shopping again and had mexican dinner at 10+pm. went for a cabaret show which was also another eye opener as you get to see breasts and dicks. the pina coloda didn't taste very good. decided to club again. this time, we went to sweet soul cafe, green mango club and moobar which were next to each other.

last day was very rushed. woke up early so as to catch a bit of the sun. wore the blue bikini bought the night before. ah yes! i managed to get a tan. mum did manicure and pedicure while i was busking in the sun. unfortunately, the sun wasn't as blazing as the previous day becos it rained during noon. had tom yum soup, green curry and chicken with cashew nuts accompanied by long island tea.

the whole trip was rather relaxing and a lot of drinking. tried swensens fondue, yumz! the local pancake which is like a crepe except that they fry it in oil and butter was appetizing! the fruits are cheap and refreshing! fantastic trip, i enjoyed myself so much that i'm loving the beach now.

it took away all my worries but i'm back to square one again.

"tonight didn't go cheong ah?"

SIGH. word is spreading that i'm a cheongster. i'm not! haven't clubbed the whole of this week.

i had a good time yesterday. went to planet fitness at suntec. ooh, the place is huge! attended the body balance class by hayley. it's a taiji and yoga mix. surprisingly quite challenging. then i jogged 3.2km and did some arms toning. i had a 15min busking in the steam room. that was the best!

met mavis for dinner at bedok 85. had a bad attack of gastric + cramps. we talked and i told her about all the flirting going on in my life. both of us suspect the wrong people are liking me. hahaz! at least it adds a little colour to my monotone life.

at about 11.30pm, walked over to lai lai to watch the guys play number becos ken went down! finally seeing him after so long. stayed awhile then i went down to nus. shawn came to pick me in this spacious car.

checked out his room and ian's room. gosh! worlds apart! his was super neat while ian's was quite bad. clothes all over, including underwears. hahaz! after that he took me on a tour around nus, showing me all the facs and halls. we went geylang (don't think otherwise!) to pick up sth from his friend.

at about 2.30am, i got back to lai lai. played snooker! i didn't know i could play. my long shots are ZAI! looks like i'll be joining every weekend to play from now on. and i have a date with alex, wensheng and alan for mahjong.

as usual, went to fei fei wanton mee for supper. only alex drove so we squeezed in the car. 5 guys and a girl. kenneth will always be kenneth. my crush-cum-eye-candy! it's ok, i have a new eye-candy there too! secret secret.

got home at 5am and slept. woke up at 9am. i'll sleep on the plane later. haven't exactly packed yet. i'll be seeing chua khoon wee later! so exciting! all the botak looks.

it's a day to be remembered.

all the good is happening maybe because it's my second consecutive week of abstinence from ladies' nite!

it should be one of my sacrifices for Lent.

off to Koh Samui from fri to sun. cya when i get back!

dear lord,

forgive me for i have sinned terribly.

let me not hang by the moment and be at everyone else's mercy.

please guide me and help me!

amen.

F U C K .

i miss chua khoon wee!! lucky that silly boy smsed me last night. totally unexpected rite? maybe it's because i'm at home on a wednesday night for the first time in a month now. been going ladies' nite and the last was with him. thinking about it, i spent the last 3 days with him before he went to tekong.

when i don't club, i tend to eat more. spells trouble! cos the anxiety/high feeling ain't around to suppress my hunger. supposed to be out tonight but mummy's friends not on. don't really have the mood but it's more like a routine now.

mummy's birthday was yesterday and many others too. i know 5 people who share the same day. went to Brazil Churrascaria for dinner. the rum steak is mamamia!! everything there is delicious actually. baked pineapple, fish, chicken, tenderloin and even the salad bar.

i'm f**king JOBLESS and it sucks! i'm almost going crazy not doing anything. somebody, please help me.

this post is specially dedicated to wing hang in hong kong!
she complained i haven't been blogging.

sorry! i've been busy. hahaz, busy clubbing. since x'mas, i've been clubbing on average twice a week. i set the record this week - thrice!

wed: chinablack ladies nite. brought kw there, his last time before going in. met up with khadi and aisyah and a new friend, dino! he's cute! mixed angmoh blood.

fri: had dinner with mavis and bong then we headed for boat quay. went to tiki bar. was an alright place, music was ok. the silly girl drank till she got high. went bedok 85 for supper with bong, shawn, wensheng, alex (driver!), jessica and her group of mj friends.

sat: zouk, of all places. it was freaking BORING!! phuture was break beats while zouk was house. the dj was lousy. the music was crap but the company was good.

anish aka rocky came down for a holiday with his family. brought him to check out the place. he's still as charming as ever. he danced, i danced and we ended up alone on the dancefloor while the rest took a break. then he held my hand and danced. it was so cha-cha-ish but it was fun!

he left for bangkok this afternoon. was at the airport. his dad is really nice man who speaks fluent english. he loves this place. his mum said i looked like a nepalese chinese. so cool! added nationality. his 12-yr-old bro is handsome too but shy.

huimin is really keen on going to nepal in june. and after chatting with 2 new nepalese friends on msn, i'm quite enthu about it too. cos the guys are all so handsome. hahaz. that's besides the point. anybody interested? lodging will be provided, transport too i suppose. so pay only for air fare and expenditure. the stuff there are really cheap too.

everyone pray that i get THAT job!! will update if i ever get it.

HAAPY NEW YEAR!!

2005 is a brand new start. it will be the time where i take on different roles and gain life experiences. not forgetting my entry to uni. i'm a grown-up. i'm gonna get to drive too. i feel old.

anyway coccolatte is really not bad. although initially it was M's paradise but it got much better later. maybe they don't have the stamina. best thing was justicia is the door bitch. my pri 1-4 classmate. how cool!

no new year resolutions whatsoever. i'll just do my bid to do good and be good.