I MISS MY DEAR SO MUCH!!

he left early this morning for genting, back only on sat evening. he went only to fulfill his wish of going on a trip with his grandma who is 90+ years old.

watched initial D on mon, it was cool.

caught a lot like love yest, it sucked. maybe not totally sucky but it fell below expectations. ate ben&jerry's strawberry and cookie dough ice creams, they were tasteless.

everything seems wrong now. taste buds flat, appetite gone and loss of sleep. surviving a lot on nescafe at work. busted $136 on skincare products from H2O. retail therapy is not working as well.

bottom line is: i can't live without him.

thursday, 23/06/05

met 8.00am @ somerset. had kaya roti from killiney kopitiam for breakfast. went to mango at centrepoint - SALE!! for once, i'm there so early on the first day. actually it was kinda coincidental. bought a reddish-pink skirt for $23 u.p. $49. dear liked it a lot and had wanted to buy it for me but i still paid in the end. satisfied with my new acquisiton, we took a train to toa payoh to visit his grandma. it was all smiles. headed back to his place @ 11.00am and slacked. had teppanyaki at northpoint (YUCKS!) for lunch. bought ben&jerry's chocolate fudge brownie and cherry garcia. yummylicious! waited till 3.30pm for the vhive delivery men to come becos of a huge cock-up. silly me wrote my hp no. instead of his on the invoice and left my phone in his room all the time. finally, had time for a good nap. woke up at 6.45pm. so late! his parents were back from work and we had to hurriedly cook dinner. ate at almost 8pm. whole family present. dinner was so nice and warm. xiao bai cai, steam seabass, black sauce chicken and lotus root soup. it was a wipeout. i missed homecooked food so much. chilled out in his room, listening to music. wanted to get the newly open pizza but it was sold out. called pizzahut and ate at 11.25pm. rushed to the bus stop to catch the last bus which arrived at 11.37pm. phew! met gabriel on the bus and we continued talking for more than half an hour outside my house. rushed back home to call dear and slept at 1.45am.

it was a simple but meaningful day. certainly no regrets about taking leave.

i'm taking off tmr, i'm so excited, i can't wait! it's just gonna be me, myself & dear! we've hardly time together alone, and tmr we'll both take a break from work.

last night was terrible though. we shed buckets of tears (exaggeration! just so u get my point). i was upset with him, and he got even more upset with himself, and it aggravated the situation. awful experience.

anyway, i've been staying over at dear's place 2 sat nights consec. the room is so cosy and romantic now with the purple ball lightings that i bought from bangkok. the bed is terribly sleep inducing. we sleep in till 11am on sun. the long desk and 2 body hugging chairs from vhive are coming in tmr. once the wall light from ikea is fixed, the room will be complete. i love hanging out in the room.

catching mr and mrs smith tonight. there're still quite a number of shows that i wanna watch. a lot like love, initial D and a japanese movie about a woman coming back to life after being dead for a year and her husband making her fall in love with him all over again. it was being reviewed on primetime morning today and it sounded touching.

i'm into lovey-dovey stuff now becos i'm in LOVE! maybe Mr Right has just appeared before me. *muackz!*

i'm just terribly upset cos i've become so FAT!

finally get the time to blog becos today is a slack day. no more pending shipments to create invoices for. gonna be pretty bored becos the msn is gone!

been so busy with work lately that i hardly get the time to blog nor blog surf. hope all my friends are doing fine.

dear has started work at robinsons centrepoint which leaves us with very little time together at night. sobz! it's alright! august will be pretty pretty. "august, quick come soon!"

as many of u may have heard, nus is moving its business & law schools to the bukit timah campus some time next year. how irritating!! i considered smu becos it was moving to city campus. now, look where i'm gonna end up!!

brought rich to stay over at dear's place on saturday night. he earned $10 becos he was rooting for aunty during her mj game and obviously she won! 2 lucky chickens! the new room is so comfy. we slept till 11am the next morning, just in time for the group tuition.

the room's about done, just lacking the cloth racks which we are getting on friday from ikea and the desk which we have yet to order from vhive. and maybe the crumpler bean bag which costs a bomb!

last and most importantly, i've put on some much weight!! ahhhh!! all my efforts!! actually whatever i lost is back.. that's about 5 to 6 kg!! i seriously need to go on a big fat diet but dear not only does not allow me, he keeps feeding me!! gotta kick myself in the ass too becos i dread running.

i figured another reason why i'm gaining weight is the irregular and improper meals that i have. especially in office, i eat bread or biscuits for lunch which is not very healthy. i've not been getting proper nutrition. therefore, i've decided to take proper meals, starting from yesterday.

oh yes! i finally met up with wingz after A-G-E-S!! i'll be seeing her every week though. trainings are so fun with her around, feels just like old days. she's one lucky girl who got to be driven around by me. hehz!

caught monster-in-law last night. nice show! i'm so into lovey-dovey shows nowadays. wanna watch a lot like love too. btw, i think m-i-l is so applicable to us. madly in love couple. hahz!

think i should go now. will try to blog when i can. cya!

been a while since i last blogged.

bangkok was good. HOT! spent a bomb. S$400 solely on shopping but managed to get lots of stuff for future use esp clothes for uni.

been very busy at work. things are changing. not even on msn nowadays.

new furniture from ikea for dear's bedroom (OUR room) are coming in today. unique L-shaped cupboard, a low bedframe and wall-mounted shelves. we should be getting a long desk from vhive as well.

gonna be joining nus for training today. spoke to uncle ronnie prior to this during age groups. quite excited! haven't bowled in almost a year.

gotta get back to work now! will try to blog again soon.

coincidentally, today is our 100 days! thanks dear for that sweet poem of yours.